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8:52 p.m. || 2003-04-02 | Ugh. I have been purging for the last three days. I can't seem to stop. I hope my tongue is ok. I mean, if it were infected, how could I tell? It doesn't hurt or anything. . . Work is going great! I love it. I am so happy I got this job :) Alas, I finally got my third essay written. I can not claim to be doing well in Psychology at the moment, though I have an A in the class, because I haven't been studying at all. Man I have to stop purging so much. It is hard to work, go to school, and binge/purge for hours on end every day, and still exercise, and get homework done. I am panicing. I feel like I am falling so behind. Shit. I will be glad when this semester is over and I get to Germany. I know I sound repetitive, but I really can't wait. If I don't lose 20 pounds by May 29th, I think I will not go, though. I am still at 127, where I think I will be stuck forever. I am so sad and lonely. I kinda miss S. now. I deserve to be alone though. I understand that. Anyway, I will update again tomorrow. Hopefully I will have gotten some damned Psych done by then.
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